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Tuesday, June 27, 2006

80 things you might not know about me.


1. What is your middle name?
Laurel

2. How big is your bed?
full

3. What are you listening to right now?
nothing

4. What are the last 4 digits in your cellphone number?
7904

5. What was the last thing you ate/drank?
Tea with Tylenol

6. Last person you hugged?
Tyner

7. How is the weather right now?
eh?

8. What was the last phone call you recieved on your phone?
Tyner

9. The first thing you notice about the opposite(same) sex?
eyes


11. Do you want children?
maybe in many moons

13. Do you get so drunk you don't remember the entire night?
yes

14. Hair color?
brown right now... thinking of highlighting it

15. Eye color?
green

16. Do you wear contacts?
when I feel brave

17. Favorite holiday?
Thanksgiving

18. Favorite Season?
summer I guess

20. Last Movie you Watched?
There's No Business Like Showbusiness

29. What books are you reading?
The Comedies of Shakespeare

30. Piercings?
lobes (4), conch, tragus, monroe, nose

31. Favorite Movie?
A Beautiful Mind

32. Favorite football Team?
what is this football you speak of

33. What were you doing before filling this out?
watching TCM

34. Any pets?
4 dogs

35. AIM?
Gen Laurel

36. Dogs or cats?
dogs, cats make me sniffle

38. Favorite Flower?
magnolia or hibiscus

40. Have you ever loved someone?
yes

41. Who would you like to see right now?
Justin but I don't want to get him sick

43. Have you ever fired a gun?
I think so

44. Do you like to travel by plane?
yes

45. Right-handed or Left-handed?
right

48. Are you missing someone?
very much so

49. Do you have a tattoo?
3

50. Do you still watch cartoons on Saturday mornings?
no, I'm working or recovering

51. Are you hiding something from someone?
yes

52. ARE YOU 18?
no

54. DID YOU GET ENOUGH SLEEP LAST NIGHT?
not really

55. FIRST THING YOU THOUGHT ABOUT THIS MORNING?
going to the doctor's office

56. WHAT DO YOU HAVE HANDY AT YOUR BEDSIDE?
alarm clock, bobby pins, hair ties, glass of water

57. GRILLED OR FRIED?
both

59. WHAT MAKES YOU UNIQUE?
cartoon voices

60. ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARKNESS?
yes

61. FAVORITE HANGOUT?
bed

62. Where'd 62 go!?
to Hell

64. FAVORITE SONG?
Elsa's Procession to the Cathedral OR Blue Shades

65. WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF?
losing teeth, enclosed places, lonliness, getting my heart broken, dying, falling, drowning, losing my dog, etc

66. ARE YOU A GIVER OR TAKER?
giver with a panache for guilt tripping

67. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
Jeni, Honeybear, Binkybear, Jen-eye

68. WHAT IS YOUR DAD'S MIDDLE NAME?
Grant

69. WHATS YOUR MOTHERS MIDDLE NAME?
Elaine

70. STUCK ON A DESERTED ISLAND & COULD ONLY BRING ONE PERSON?
I hate this question

71. WHATS YOUR FAVORTIE T.V. COMMERCIAL
Probably that cell phone commercial where the guy has "security features"

72. WHO'S YOUR CELL PHONE PROVIDER?
Verizon

73. FIRST THING YOU'LL SAVE IN A FIRE?
Chloe

74. Favorite color?
I don't know anymore. Lately I like colors.

75. WHAT ARE FOUR THINGS YOU ALWAYS BRING WITH YOU?
ID, money, sense of humor


76. WHAT DID YOU WANNA BE WHEN YOU WERE A KID?
the zoo

77. WHAT DO YOU USUALLY DO WHEN THE CLOCK TURNS?
age, slowly die, etc etc.

78. THE COLOR OF YOUR BEDSHEET?
sage

79. WHO DO U WANT TO MEET?
an agent who worships me and pushes me to the top

80. WHAT DO U THINK ABOUT BEF0RE Y0U G0 T0 BED?
when is the absolute latest time I can set my alarm
posted by The Impossibly Cute One on 2:52 PM

Thursday, June 22, 2006

I should have been alive in the 40s.
So simple.
So elegant.
And they had real struggles.
Hmmm.

Also. I am only listening to uplifting music from now on.
This involves getting rid of most of my collection.
No longer a victim.
If it doesn't inspire me, it is only dragging me down.
Goodbye goodbye sad little girl in the corner.
Hello strong young woman, taking her first steps.
posted by The Impossibly Cute One on 8:06 PM

Thursday, June 15, 2006

"I'm getting old enough, I have to start picking my battles."

My mother said that a week ago to me. At 21, I feel the same way. Life has become so much more complicated. I am growing up. And as I've said before, it hurts. I think the only thing that grows as your body has stopped, might be your heart. And mine is getting so big, that it rips a little more on the jagged edges of my ribs. I must simplify. I cannot please everyone all the time. I cannot care anymore if the things that make me happy make others unhappy. I do not do things to intentionally hurt others. Ever. My mind does not think like that. Also, I do not consider others when I make decisions. Why? I've been on my own since I was a child. My parents weren't around when I was little. They were too busy working hard to give us everything they never had. So I learned early, you have to take care of yourself. No one else is going to do it for you. And it shouldn't be their obligation anyway. Everyone has their own shit to deal with. And if everyone minded their own business and took care of their own problems instead of creating more for themselves and others, the world would have a lot less problems in it. I do not have time for childishness anymore. I'm not saying there is no time for fun, but I am surrounded by, I would say 95%, good friends. And the other 5% constantly bring me down and bring drama. These 5% cannot be happy for other people, because they are so dissatisfied with their own lives. And so they say nasty things and talk about me when my back is turned and try to stir up trouble in my life, because why shouldn't I have some pain too? Well. Because I have worked HARD for everything I have. And I have had more pain that some people can ever imagine. And I am DONE with pain. So. This 5% has to go. I cannot be drug down anymore. When I have a wonderful circle of uplifting, fun, inspiring friends, why would I want to hang out with the pouting kids in the corner. No more. You either lift me up, or I walk away. As simple as that.

On another note. I am sick of people telling me what to do in my relationship. And I am sick of people assuming they know about my relationship. All the time, I get it. From so many different people who know absolutely nothing about us except that they cannot believe that I am happy. Well, suckers. I am. Justin is not just my boyfriend. He is my best friend. And I hate when it comes back around to me that people are trying to talk to him about our relationship. A relationship involves two people. So everyone else had just better stay out and mind their own business. IF by chance I might want to talk to someone else about my relationship, which is completely rare, all I want is someone to listen. I don't want advice. I don't want to be told anything at all. I want someone to nod their head and say "mmmhmmm". And I most certainly do not want someone to try to "make things better" or intervene in any way shape or form. NADA. We've been doing this for almost three years now. I think we've got the hang of it. ALRIGHT. I'm done bitching now. It's out. I feel better. Finished.

EXCEPT.
Could everyone please start being happy for me that I'm losing weight a healthy way? I think we all know that I had a problem in the past with losing sensibly, so this is a very big deal for me. I am working VERY hard. I am on a very restrictive diet and I am working out twice a day. Please respect what I am doing instead of dismissing it as though I'm taking an easy way out this time. I've gotten so many negative comments. I'm changing to pursue my dreams. Shouldn't that be a good thing? My dreams have always been a part of me. These lovehandles haven't. We can't all stay the same high schooly kids forever, believe it or not.
posted by The Impossibly Cute One on 10:56 PM

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

45 days and counting
posted by The Impossibly Cute One on 10:53 AM

WHOO!
That is all.
posted by The Impossibly Cute One on 10:32 AM