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Thursday, April 29, 2004

Momentous morning: My mother told me I looked pretty today. Get out your parkas, kids. Hell has frozen over.
posted by The Impossibly Cute One on 9:48 AM

Wednesday, April 28, 2004

Things that make life liveable:
Natalie keeping me sane in choir
Losing 6 lbs
Justin... nuff said
Voicemails/text messaging
Hot Topic
Free food (stolen of course)
Corbin II
Mix CDs (Go Max)
Magic Markers
Pets (Mr. Turtle!)
Light breezes
Home movies of your parents

Referring to the earlier vegan comment... Lauren convinced me this is a good change to make. I will not be sticking to it in Ireland (how often do you get to indulge yourself in pub grub?), but here in America, I'm on day two as a vegan. Honestly, I feel great. I have so much energy and just feel healthier. So... I'd prefer it if people wouldn't question this decision. And hey, if someday I feel like a hamburger, damnit, I'll eat a hamburger. But for now, I like this change.
posted by The Impossibly Cute One on 7:25 PM

Things I've decided:
Take care of #1 first... in the end, all you have is you.
No more theatre... obviously it's not for me.
Must lose weight... swimsuit season aproacheth.
Get two jobs... money now means freedom later.
Slowly become a vegan thanks to Lauren Rubinaccio... eating 1.5 eggs a day increases your risk of heart attack by 35%... cheese and meats clog your arteries... dairy is bad for your voice... chocolate is my major weakness.
Orange juice could bring world peace... hey, it could happen.
Decide what I'm doing with my life... I need a sense of purpose.

Things that are making my day better:
orange juice
bubble bath
tanning
Notary Public and witness discussing piercings and tats with me... too funny
Stacie's nickname for me (the impossibly cute one)
internet access
suprise refund check from USI
house being sprayed for pests... hurrah!
having all my paperwork done for Ireland
clean room
winning solitaire 3 times
no more women's choir(!!!)
upcoming trips (Lafayette, Ireland, Jersey)
smiles


posted by The Impossibly Cute One on 1:14 PM

Tuesday, April 27, 2004

Bad dream... this is how it went:
Justin, Wadj, and Jess were all visiting Fort Branch with me. A funeral procession passed by. Sarah Robinson (random?) appeared out of nowhere and apparently she and Justin were old friends in dreamland. We went to eat lunch. We sat like this: Wadj, Jeni, Jess, big gap of chairs, Sarah, Justin. Then Wadj left. Then Jess left. Then Justin came to tell me he was leaving to go to a party with Sarah. This made a sad dream Jeni. I hate that dream. What an awful way to start the day.
posted by The Impossibly Cute One on 8:05 AM

Monday, April 26, 2004

Yellows are the most fun-loving, free-spirited, energetic, and childlike personalities in the aura spectrum. Yellows are wonderful, sensitive, optimistic beings, whose life purpose is to bring joy to people, to have fun, and to help heal the planet.

Yellows can either be very shy and sensitive, or they can be the life of the party. These playful characters have a great sense of humor. They love to laugh and to make others laugh. Yellows believe life is to be enjoyed. They like to live life freely and spontaneously. With a perpetual smile on their face, they remind people to not take themselves or their problems too seriously.

Yellows would prefer not to work at all, unless their work was fun, playful, or creative. They love nature, and often have concerns for the survival of wildlife and the environment. Dogs are very drawn to Yellows and often become their best friends.
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Sound like anyone YOU know??

Oh, and my life was rated R on that other dumb quiz.

posted by The Impossibly Cute One on 11:21 PM

Hurrah! Another week! How thrilling.

This is bliss: sitting in the sunshine with a diet coke.

My Butta is far, far away today moving a 9 foot piano... Strange how you miss someone when they're farther away than normal... even if you wouldn't necessarily see them that day anyway. Maybe I'm just weird like that.

If anyone has called the past couple of days and I haven't answered, or I have and seemed out of it: The sleeping dissorder has returned. I think it's a finals time thing. Anyway... I'm going to sleep pretty early and napping whenever possible... so I might be weird or nonexistent if you call.

There's a first time for everything. Today I was told I was "so tan"... this has never happened before. I've been called freckle-y, but never tan. MUAHAHA. Thanks Stacie!

Cannot wait for:
Ireland
new apartment
living with Natalie
the Laramie cast list
working/making money
Mayday Metalfest
summer
road trips
drive in movie on top of a van
friends coming home
swimming
getting in shape with Lissa
the weeklong party that will occur when Eric and I are "house sitting" while the parents are in Hawaii
a big hug from a big guy

I'm done now.
posted by The Impossibly Cute One on 1:30 PM

Friday, April 23, 2004

Ps. My blog is beautiful because of Burgdorf. HURRAH! Thanks, man.

Pss. Come to the show and party Saturday, chilluns!
posted by The Impossibly Cute One on 2:54 PM

I am at home stealing cleaning supplies to tidy up the blue house. And I'm stealing non-perishable food items... muahahaha. It's funny (not funny haha; funny weird) how food always tastes better if it's stolen. Like, if you steal food off someone else's plate it always tastes better... even if you ordered the same thing. The jello is always greener on the other plate, I guess. Anyway...
posted by The Impossibly Cute One on 2:53 PM

Thursday, April 22, 2004

Like Billy Joel... I am movin out.

Desperate plea: If you think you owe me money from something or other, now would be the time to pay me back(or before April 30). I know that money is scarce for all college kids, but I'd really appreciate it. I'm going to be struggling to pay my rent this month. Thanks.

Also: I have clothing for sale. That's right- the packrat is finally cleaning out her closet. SO... talk to me if you want to buy things. Tops are $5, bottoms are $10... this is negotiable. Remember though... I'm broke... be kind... rewind... what?
posted by The Impossibly Cute One on 11:20 AM

Wednesday, April 21, 2004

4 Phi Delts are moving into the blue house next week. Jeni is pissed.

Another fiesta will be taking place at mi casa azule(my blue house). Paradigum is playing at USI on the basketball court by the apartments at 2:00pm Saturday afternoon. The afterparty will be at my house that evening. Feel free to drop by... all are welcome... byob if you're into that... wahoo. I'll be home anytime after 4:00, so stop in at your leisure. Come hear the boys play and then chill at the blue house. Please. Call for more details, directions, etc. Awesome!

Kill Bill Vol. 1 is wonderful... I'm excited to see Vol. 2.

I just got my Mayday ticket in the mail! This makes me soooo happy!

I smell like lawn... I'm going to go fix that. BYEEEE.
posted by The Impossibly Cute One on 6:40 PM

Sunday, April 18, 2004

Note to self: Buy Nate a Halmark thankyou card.
posted by The Impossibly Cute One on 12:42 PM

I heard Tell My Ma on the radio today... some weird folk station.... hmmmm...

Thank you, Christopher. Sometimes you just have to be psychic.

These things bummed out my day: dehydrating, whiplash, illness, the cage, USIdol
These things brightened my day: The Loft, The Verve Pipe, Sir Real, puppy chow, the ferris wheel, stuffed french toast date

Today I'm going to VU to see Ashley's show. YAY! Tomorrow I audition for a USI show... woah... could she be going back to theatre? Tune in next blog to see!

(Country singers should not remake Janis Joplin songs...the end)
posted by The Impossibly Cute One on 12:38 PM

Thursday, April 15, 2004

Note about the party: Bring your friends... liquid or human. Whatevah.

I would also like to thank the makers of the delicious cookies we have at work, wherever ye may be.

Will ye go Lassie, go? NO.

My stomach is all messed up and has been for days. This sucks. Stupid cardio kickboxing.
posted by The Impossibly Cute One on 10:59 AM

Going to work is funnnn...uh, no. If I could figure out a way to get paid for doing nothing, I'd so be down with that.

I am beyond tired. Tonight I'm going to see Charlie's Aunt with Brittany and maybe Baby Chick. Then I'm going to pick Jess up. Then we'll party until I decide I should maybe sleep before my morning class. Friday and Saturday = Springfest!! VERVE PIPE!! Hurrah! Sunday = You're a Good Man Charlie Brown. Ashley is Sally! My new philosophy... and finally Sunday night I'll probably bother that wonderful fellow... Jess and Ashley want me to go to the cast party... but I don't know about all that. Party + Vincinnes = trouble. I'll stay in Evansville where people just steal your ICEE. Bah... hardcore kid. Anyway...

Jess said I had a nice butt last night... that's so weird and funny all at the same time... I'm not sure how to take that.

Melissa... you're the best message leaver ever.

Natalie and I may have found a place with the help of Christopher! I'm so excited!! Whooo! I miss Christopher. Our visit last Saturday was not long enough. We need to have Barnes movie moments again. Natalie will be fun to live with, I feel. I can't wait until Ireland. We're soooo kidnapping a leprechaun... or a small child wearing green. Whatever works. Oak Street... Downtooooooown. :) YAY!

I signed up to audition for Laramie at USI... oh my gosh... she's going back to theatre... weird...

DONE
posted by The Impossibly Cute One on 8:01 AM

Hanson!
posted by The Impossibly Cute One on 12:08 AM

So, here are some fun things to do:

April 25- USI Women's Choir Concert @ Old North Methodist 7:00pm
May 2- USI Chamber Choir Concert @ Old North Methodist 3:00pm
Party at the blue house tomorrow (Thursday) night. 10:00pm. Call for more info
Charlie's Aunt @ USI
You're a Good Man Charlie Brown @ VU
April 30- Mayday Metalfest

I'm so tired.
My new favorite thing in the world is when Justin knocks on my window. It's all chivalrous-like... it makes me happy.
I'm going to bed, because I've forgotten everything I was going to write about. Damn.
posted by The Impossibly Cute One on 12:07 AM

Tuesday, April 13, 2004

I just ordered my ticket for Mayday Metalfest in Lafayette, Indiana! Have you?
Visit www.paradigum.com or www.darkdomain.us to get more ticket info!
It'll be a slammin' good time with bands such as:
Paradigum
Damien
M.O.D.
Fetish Doll
Rune
Mastodon
... and much, much more!

Mayday Metalfest
April 30 - May 2
Reihle Bros. Tavern
Lafayette, Indiana
Friday- $15
Saturday- $20
Sunday- $20
or all three days for $50!!

posted by The Impossibly Cute One on 2:46 PM

Monday, April 12, 2004

My thanks to the makers of guacamole flavored chips. You've changed my world.


posted by The Impossibly Cute One on 4:07 PM

Thursday, April 08, 2004

A family friend came in today to get a glasses adjustment, and that totally turned my attitude around. I'm back to normal. No more manic mood swings. In honor of his visit, I'll post a piece that he inspired about 4 years ago:

Killer

Such a dear man
He put up with teens,
Antics, hassles
And all with grace
Oh, such a dear man
And what a smile
He could melt anyone
Even that old woman
Down the street
The one who spends her days
Telling the neighbor girls
Of the pain and strife
Men bring with their flattery
What a beautiful smile
The kind that gleams
But not with intent
Just out of pure joy
And inner beauty
Oh and how pleasant he was
Treating my mother
And her friend to wine
And telling stories
Of his time in theatre
Which is the first way
To get to my heart
But he didn't do so
He only told me of his life
Without deeper meaning
Oh how pleasant
To open up without fear
Of falling in love
What a satisfaction
To know that there is
One man out there
That has now become
The kind of man I'll seek
Until the end of my days
And maybe I'll be the kind
That he has searched for too
And what a satisfaction
To know that if there is one
Then there must be others
And my, what a talker
He could keep a conversation
With the densest of life
Even the young men
Who passed me by
Without a second thought
But he would stop them
And say
"Look at those eyes,
So gorgeous and intriguing.
And that smile.
Boy, she'll be killer
When she's twenty-two"
The current guy would blush
And give me a smile
That said, "Who is this man?"
I'd just smile back
And he would begin to search
For the things this man said
My, what a talker
How I now am anxious
To turn twenty-two
And show him that I am
What he once said would be
"Killer"



Another old work:

Tummy Trust

Someone I love very dearly once told me "Trust your tummy." I didn't understand at the time, so I later looked him up and asked him to go further in depth with his logic. He explained, "The heart is too emotional, and the brain is too logical. However, your tummy is not partial. If you go to your tummy for the answer, you won't be wrong." I found this very intgriguing for a long time, but I didn't follow it as gosple. I met someone perfectly wonderful a few days after this conversation and my tummy, heart, and mind said, "Yes, go ahead and check him out." I did and he became very dear to me. I started getting overwhelmed with all the commitments I had to fulfill in my life and I soon forgot the tummy philosophy. Using logic and brainpower was the only thing that would get me through the next few months. This young man treated me with the respect and love of a modern day Romeo, but my mind told me, "You have one too many commitments and there's only one that can go. It's not fair for him to be pushed aside. He'll be happier this way." So, I let my darling Romeo go. He was very understanding, though heartbroken. My mind told me I didn't have time to be heartbroken, though my tummy and heart said otherwise. The following week, I began to see my best friend in a different light. He was involved in almost all the activities that I was, and we both enjoyed the company of each other. We began dating just to see if a relationship could work. Fortunately it did. I became quite smitten with him in a matter of weeks. He seemed to be having a pleasant time as well, so we became "exclusive." He was not only the perfect gentleman, but he understood me and my interests. We both had an understanding of each others hectic schedules and never became selfish or upset when we didn't get time together. I kept falling even harder for him. For half of a year, we enjoyed our time together until his tummy said, "I'm moving away and I can't let her miss out on life for my sake." This was quite hard on me, because I let my heart guide me through this relationship. My mind seemed to have messed up the last one pretty badly. I suppose it was a good thing that the relationship was ended in love. He is still my best friend, and there are times when my heart wants me to say, "I love you". But my tummy says it will be easier on both of us if I didn't. Perhaps someday I will remember the philosophy of tummy trust when I meet someone special. And perhaps someday I will be able to truly love that man.



And one more that I completely forgot about that has nothing to do with anything:

always wearing red

I stand outside your window
in a whirlwind of cherry blossom breezes
while your memory's muse
whispers softly in my ear
the voice breathing its warmth
with sticky sweet temptations
onto my skin
letting me know again
why I've come here

In this succulent near silence
you appear just above
distanced only by window panes
and the velvet veil of night
wearing red...
wearing red...
always wearing red...
and I reach to you hungrily
as pools of incandescent yellow light
dance tauntingly along the surface
of your caramel colored skin
while your bottomless eyes
peer into the night
to unknowingly ravish my soul

The window shade lowers by your hand
and all that is left of your slender silhouette
disappears into something like a dream
the last of your evanescent laughter
winds its way around the flowering trees
and into the nothingness of night
leaving me alone again to grieve

posted by The Impossibly Cute One on 11:41 AM

Tuesday, April 06, 2004

Why do you just know that the people in your dreams are who you assume they are, even if they look nothing at all like those people? I guess dreams are weird like that.

Curse you, mother nature...

Mmm... cookie dough. I owe Shalonda a replacement...muahahaha...


posted by The Impossibly Cute One on 4:02 PM

Friday, April 02, 2004

The song containing the lyrics "you give me the most gorgeous sleep that I've ever had" is Underneath It All by No Doubt. Thanks to NO ONE, I finally have peace of mind about this issue. BLAAAAAH!
posted by The Impossibly Cute One on 6:07 PM

Disclaimer: The author of this blog is dumb sometimes and makes mistakes. Therefore, you should know that Carbondale is NOT an hour ahead of us, and Jeni is a big idiot. A-thank-you.

Ps. I'm going to play pin-the-tail-on-the-bitchy-alto-in-women's-choir. With a knife. That's right... say it with me... "stab."

That sounded violent. Well, kiddos, this 5' ball of happiness doesn't always shine golden rays.

Hug me! I'm eccentric!

Natalie and I need the following shirts: those 2 old muppet men that bitch and moan about everything, AND "Chocolate is my anti-drug"

I'm taking Justin on a date! YAY! I like being able to give back. What a great guy... I need to clean my car...

I applied for a job at Zeidler's on the west side. I'll tell you how that turns out. If you know anyplace downtown or on the west side that's hiring, email this bitch.

LATAH
posted by The Impossibly Cute One on 2:51 PM

Thursday, April 01, 2004

I hate April Fools Day. What a waste of creativity.

I had a dream last night that if I touched someone, I could grant anything they desired. A lot of people made wishes without thinking about how it would affect their life. Kensington is the only one who decided to go after her dreams herself and take what life was going to give her. Props to dream-Kensington.

Speaking of K... she can tie knots in her hair too... dangit. I thought I had one up on her.

Thank you for being a part of my life. "Who can say if I've been changed for the better; but because I knew you, I have been changed for good."

posted by The Impossibly Cute One on 9:19 AM

Remember: Saturday if you plan on going to Carbondale, they are an hour ahead of us. When you wake up Sunday, they will not be. Set your clocks slackers.

Going to sleep. Goodnight.
posted by The Impossibly Cute One on 12:29 AM

I am so blessed...
posted by The Impossibly Cute One on 12:25 AM